A day once dawned, and it was beautiful

ah. and then time passed.

i very nearly have on my hands a feisty, walking, babbling, inquisitive, fabulously happy one year old. he's gorgeous. i am in love. and this year has been wonderful. i can hardly believe that its been that long. but time seems to pass exponentially fast when you're measuring it in teeth, and waves, and words.
 

we've been busy. it's nearly july, and that means our annual party is just next week. on top of that, like i mentioned, i have a first birthday coming up for phin, and my in-laws are coming into town next week. i'm also helping my beautiful friend keri plan her wedding and i'm up to my ears in crafts. [on the list: memory table, photo editing, activity book, card box, paper pom-poms, centerpieces, and signs. oh my!] and finally, shortly after all that we're going to talk about maybe adding to our brood, so that's very exciting. and crazy, intimidating, overwhelming, all that fun stuff.

alan has been very busy with projects such as building me a chicken coop (!!!), working on some vehicles he bought at a dealer auction, remodeling his office, etc. i think next week when the cabin party is over and our family has left town, we made need to take a little stay-cation. cold drinks on a blanket in the yard sounds wonderful, and gin and tonics always do the trick for us. our real vacation won't be until the beginning of october, so we need something to hold us over until then!

im considering more responsibility for myself (part of me would like to say 'finally!' but thats also the small part that is ruthlessly ambitious and doesn't give herself enough credit) and am considering all sorts of projects that could potentially raise some extra income for us. at some point, you just have to pull the trigger, right? we'll see where these rogue thoughts take me... i am losing myself to them. potential is exciting, isnt it? terrifying and so very exciting.

-l

the best way for me to begin is probably to introduce the things that have created me.

alan james and phineas lee.

loving the first and creating the second have made everything else ive ever done worth it.

phin was born mid-july. he's 3 and a half months which means that if we were going that way, id be back to work right now. but we're not.

i broke up with my job a few months ago. and thats exactly what it felt like, too. i called my boss on a monday afternoon, broke up with my job (we want different things. my life is just very hectic right now. its not you, its me.) and had to have a strong drink. before that week, i had every intention of going back. but looking into childcare, the cost, the emotional toll of being out of the house 45 hours a week, alan talked me into staying home. and so far, we're absolutely making it work.

phin is happy being him. alan is happy to have a well-adjusted baby, a clean house, and no responsibility at home. and im so happy to be doing it. alan has made everything in my life so easy. i dont know how i deserved him.

so, there's that.

the beginning.

im hoping that by getting into a routine, im going to be able to do more crafty endeavors at home. make more use of my time which is the trade off for not having as much money. make it work.

-l