the best way for me to begin is probably to introduce the things that have created me.

alan james and phineas lee.

loving the first and creating the second have made everything else ive ever done worth it.

phin was born mid-july. he's 3 and a half months which means that if we were going that way, id be back to work right now. but we're not.

i broke up with my job a few months ago. and thats exactly what it felt like, too. i called my boss on a monday afternoon, broke up with my job (we want different things. my life is just very hectic right now. its not you, its me.) and had to have a strong drink. before that week, i had every intention of going back. but looking into childcare, the cost, the emotional toll of being out of the house 45 hours a week, alan talked me into staying home. and so far, we're absolutely making it work.

phin is happy being him. alan is happy to have a well-adjusted baby, a clean house, and no responsibility at home. and im so happy to be doing it. alan has made everything in my life so easy. i dont know how i deserved him.

so, there's that.

the beginning.

im hoping that by getting into a routine, im going to be able to do more crafty endeavors at home. make more use of my time which is the trade off for not having as much money. make it work.

-l